In our Christian walk, sometimes we fail. It happens. Do you think Jesus doesn’t love you? He knows its going to happen. He loves us, strengthens us, and hopes for us to be strong and not sin, failing Him. But He knows. I have found that as you develop a close relationship with Jesus, you see how plain and matter of fact He can be. When you sin and then repent asking for forgiveness, He does in a matter of fact manner. He deals with us like servants, children, and yes friends. 

This is illustrated in the Bible as Jesus speaks to Simon Peter about his upcoming failure and lies he’ll tell about Jesus when questioned. 

Jesus said, “Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift each of you like wheat. But I have pleaded in prayer for you Simon, that your faith should not fail. So when you have repented and turned to me again, strengthen your brothers.” (Luke 22:31)

Jesus knew Peter would lie and deny Him, knew he would repent, and gave him instructions of what to do afterwards.

So don’t give up on yourself, Jesus hasn’t.